Being happy?!?

I thought I'll be happy
Trust me I did
I resolved to be so
I put awesome make up on
Was party time to rock on

The dress was nice and sassy
And yes I did look classy
I danced & swirled & made merry
Pouted selfies & scented rosemary

But then why did my heart pound
What again went unfound
Was it again you my distant lover
Did you again came & left over?

I told you not to love me
I told you not to care
You still came close
You gave me your life's share

Now nowhere to be found
You left unannounced
I partied way too long
But my heart won't play along

They think I rock the dance floor
They see sexy moves & want more
I put up a good show
But my heart cries & goes low

I breath you, I bleed you, I need you so hard
How could you go so easily apart?
You did care but did too go..
Left alone I feel like use & throw!

You work, you play, you stay away
For crying lonely is what I may stay
Did I deserve all that crappy
When all I thought was to be happy..