Being happy?!?

I thought I'll be happy
Trust me I did
I resolved to be so
I put awesome make up on
Was party time to rock on

The dress was nice and sassy
And yes I did look classy
I danced & swirled & made merry
Pouted selfies & scented rosemary

But then why did my heart pound
What again went unfound
Was it again you my distant lover
Did you again came & left over?

I told you not to love me
I told you not to care
You still came close
You gave me your life's share

Now nowhere to be found
You left unannounced
I partied way too long
But my heart won't play along

They think I rock the dance floor
They see sexy moves & want more
I put up a good show
But my heart cries & goes low

I breath you, I bleed you, I need you so hard
How could you go so easily apart?
You did care but did too go..
Left alone I feel like use & throw!

You work, you play, you stay away
For crying lonely is what I may stay
Did I deserve all that crappy
When all I thought was to be happy.. 

He belongs to a different world.

he belongs to a different world
a world that ain't mine..

he's chirpy with friends
his shirts glorified

He sips on bear while he thinks of coke
he laughs and giggles with some hookah smoke

he belongs to a different world
a world that ain't mine..

many go away and many come
he stays with all and he does like some

with me is duty: his mouth is zipped
his friends are fun: he feels ripped

he belongs to a different world
a world that ain't mine..

his shirts are formal, his look serious
his vision too large & he talks business

his romance is silent and his tone very happy
his answers round and his ways very snappy

he belongs to a different world
a world that ain't mine..

he walks and talks and lives a perfect life
but feels distant to me- hard to survive

he says he's him, when around me
but I see him happier minus Sohani

he says he's content when around me
but I see his satisfaction minus Sohani

he says he sleeps with me like never before
then why does he chose to be awake so more?

he belongs to a different world
a world that ain't mine..

he bows to his duties & gets away
to a world that's his - leaving me alone as I may..

You vs. Me

You vs me

Whatever I say goes on to destruct 
Whatever you say just doesn't construct 
Whatever we do is go-went-gone
Whatever we feel is home alone 
I do try to fuck up
Yes I do try to fake
You still try to look up
You still try to make
Am I too cold or are you too warm
Is the world too cruel or am I stuck up in the social norm? 
Peace me, embrace me, pace me down
For I may sink but you shall not drown
Bring it on you prosperity, bring on the fire
Cos I may ash down but not you my desire!