You kill me a million times..

That moment when you feel my voice and kiss me on the phone

and I just can't kiss you back... 

That's when you kill me

That moment when you embrace the distance & say it's fine

and I just can't confirm you back..

That's when you kill me

That moment when you assure me togetherness our whole life

and I just can't be there one moment..

That's when you kill me

That moment when you drive all the way to the city for my one luxury

and I just can’t sit by your side..

That's when you kill me

That moment when you say you want to love me

and I just can't love you back..

That's when you kill me

That moment when you sit out in the cold only to comfort me

and I just can't ease you out..

That's when you kill me

That moment when you FaceTime & gaze with your eyes filled with love

And I just can't look back at you..

That's when you kill me

That moment when you tell me you miss me every time you talk

and I just can't speak with those tears..

That's when you kill me

Every single moment you try to come close you kill me..

And if that's how's it going to be.. 

Kill me more... For I find peace and comfort in your love more than any life could give me

Kill me more.. For its death by you, my prosperity, which is beyond the distance that your country and mine may bring

Kill me more.. For it'll be my way of loosing myself into a distance-free world

Kill me more.. For it's the only way where I can be yours… 

Not every night!

Not every night is the night
when I write
Not every day is the day
when I fight

Sometimes I want to believe in the blue
I wanna feel him, touch him, with distance very few

Not every night is the night - to cry
not every day is the day - too dry

Sometimes it's about that real touch
asking his love ain't too much..

Nineteen days is what I count on fingers
they may look less but the pain still lingers

Not every night is when I feel so strong
Distance may be right but my love ain't wrong

M sick, m tires, I can't cry any more
bring me back my prosperity, the one I adore!

I give you nights for I pray to Navgrah
well take another nine for each one takes a prayer

For the last one night you lead me to mine
for that's where I belong, that's my divine..

19 nights is my challenge dear God
for it may be fancy - but my love ain't fraud

Not every night is the night to wait..
Bring me home! & bless my fate!

WHERE I BELONG TO YOU...

I feel alone the whole day,
      I have little to do..
I have less people to talk to,
      I have nowhere to go..

But I enjail myself
      willingly in this blue..
For that's where
      I belong to you..

I crash,
      I cry..
Minute by minute
      I feel like I die..

I crunch,
      I scream..
You're distant my love
      & us is a dream..

I sleep with the blanket
      & I talk to the walls..
Waiting seems endless
      & I feed on your calls..

I cuddle your pillow
      & I embrace your drawer..
Every night m a soldier
      & alone I fight a war..

I burn in the cold
      & m cold in the heat..
it's like ditching my own heart
      & being my own cheat..

For I tell my heart you're close
      I tell you're in those sheets..
the lie tries to keep me alive
      & thus my heart still beats..

I howl, I cry,
      I sob & I beat..
for my waiting leads me
      to endless defeat..

But I enjail myself
      willingly in this blue..
For that's where
      I belong to you..