Beggars are not choosers!

Beggars are not choosers!


You throw tantrums
you like your rights
good on you mate
that's how you reach heights


I am desperate to get something
some engagement at all
give me one chance
I won't let it fall


you take your time
with your head held high
good on you mate
you may reach the sky


I pray for one moment
one moment of agreement
given that chance
I would make my on increment


I may be a beggar now
and you may be a chooser
but will show them how
I ain't a looser!


My time is near
I may as well choose
but for my dear
I'll wait till the news

Being happy?!?

I thought I'll be happy
Trust me I did
I resolved to be so
I put awesome make up on
Was party time to rock on

The dress was nice and sassy
And yes I did look classy
I danced & swirled & made merry
Pouted selfies & scented rosemary

But then why did my heart pound
What again went unfound
Was it again you my distant lover
Did you again came & left over?

I told you not to love me
I told you not to care
You still came close
You gave me your life's share

Now nowhere to be found
You left unannounced
I partied way too long
But my heart won't play along

They think I rock the dance floor
They see sexy moves & want more
I put up a good show
But my heart cries & goes low

I breath you, I bleed you, I need you so hard
How could you go so easily apart?
You did care but did too go..
Left alone I feel like use & throw!

You work, you play, you stay away
For crying lonely is what I may stay
Did I deserve all that crappy
When all I thought was to be happy.. 

He belongs to a different world.

he belongs to a different world
a world that ain't mine..

he's chirpy with friends
his shirts glorified

He sips on bear while he thinks of coke
he laughs and giggles with some hookah smoke

he belongs to a different world
a world that ain't mine..

many go away and many come
he stays with all and he does like some

with me is duty: his mouth is zipped
his friends are fun: he feels ripped

he belongs to a different world
a world that ain't mine..

his shirts are formal, his look serious
his vision too large & he talks business

his romance is silent and his tone very happy
his answers round and his ways very snappy

he belongs to a different world
a world that ain't mine..

he walks and talks and lives a perfect life
but feels distant to me- hard to survive

he says he's him, when around me
but I see him happier minus Sohani

he says he's content when around me
but I see his satisfaction minus Sohani

he says he sleeps with me like never before
then why does he chose to be awake so more?

he belongs to a different world
a world that ain't mine..

he bows to his duties & gets away
to a world that's his - leaving me alone as I may..

You vs. Me

You vs me

Whatever I say goes on to destruct 
Whatever you say just doesn't construct 
Whatever we do is go-went-gone
Whatever we feel is home alone 
I do try to fuck up
Yes I do try to fake
You still try to look up
You still try to make
Am I too cold or are you too warm
Is the world too cruel or am I stuck up in the social norm? 
Peace me, embrace me, pace me down
For I may sink but you shall not drown
Bring it on you prosperity, bring on the fire
Cos I may ash down but not you my desire!

You kill me a million times..

That moment when you feel my voice and kiss me on the phone

and I just can't kiss you back... 

That's when you kill me

That moment when you embrace the distance & say it's fine

and I just can't confirm you back..

That's when you kill me

That moment when you assure me togetherness our whole life

and I just can't be there one moment..

That's when you kill me

That moment when you drive all the way to the city for my one luxury

and I just can’t sit by your side..

That's when you kill me

That moment when you say you want to love me

and I just can't love you back..

That's when you kill me

That moment when you sit out in the cold only to comfort me

and I just can't ease you out..

That's when you kill me

That moment when you FaceTime & gaze with your eyes filled with love

And I just can't look back at you..

That's when you kill me

That moment when you tell me you miss me every time you talk

and I just can't speak with those tears..

That's when you kill me

Every single moment you try to come close you kill me..

And if that's how's it going to be.. 

Kill me more... For I find peace and comfort in your love more than any life could give me

Kill me more.. For its death by you, my prosperity, which is beyond the distance that your country and mine may bring

Kill me more.. For it'll be my way of loosing myself into a distance-free world

Kill me more.. For it's the only way where I can be yours… 

Not every night!

Not every night is the night
when I write
Not every day is the day
when I fight

Sometimes I want to believe in the blue
I wanna feel him, touch him, with distance very few

Not every night is the night - to cry
not every day is the day - too dry

Sometimes it's about that real touch
asking his love ain't too much..

Nineteen days is what I count on fingers
they may look less but the pain still lingers

Not every night is when I feel so strong
Distance may be right but my love ain't wrong

M sick, m tires, I can't cry any more
bring me back my prosperity, the one I adore!

I give you nights for I pray to Navgrah
well take another nine for each one takes a prayer

For the last one night you lead me to mine
for that's where I belong, that's my divine..

19 nights is my challenge dear God
for it may be fancy - but my love ain't fraud

Not every night is the night to wait..
Bring me home! & bless my fate!

WHERE I BELONG TO YOU...

I feel alone the whole day,
      I have little to do..
I have less people to talk to,
      I have nowhere to go..

But I enjail myself
      willingly in this blue..
For that's where
      I belong to you..

I crash,
      I cry..
Minute by minute
      I feel like I die..

I crunch,
      I scream..
You're distant my love
      & us is a dream..

I sleep with the blanket
      & I talk to the walls..
Waiting seems endless
      & I feed on your calls..

I cuddle your pillow
      & I embrace your drawer..
Every night m a soldier
      & alone I fight a war..

I burn in the cold
      & m cold in the heat..
it's like ditching my own heart
      & being my own cheat..

For I tell my heart you're close
      I tell you're in those sheets..
the lie tries to keep me alive
      & thus my heart still beats..

I howl, I cry,
      I sob & I beat..
for my waiting leads me
      to endless defeat..

But I enjail myself
      willingly in this blue..
For that's where
      I belong to you..